Archive for September 21st, 2010


Sooooo, this time last week, I was ready to throw in the towel, but I’m doing much better now.  At least mentally and emotionally.  I’ve still been struggling with feeling of guilt for not writing you everyday, but honestly, there’s not a lot to update….every single day.  I deal with pain, 24 hours a day.  I’m mostly just trying to get through the day with that, plus the normal stuff of taking care of my family as much as I’m physically able to do so.

My mom and Mike told me that I’ve been going through the stages of mourning….

And last week, I hit hard core, bottom of the barrel, end of the rope depression.

And now I’m moving on to acceptance.

Step 1: According to James 5:14: “Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord.” And we did and they did. Mike and I met with some of the elders in between services on Sunday and it was powerful.  It meant a lot to me that they not only laid hands and prayed for me but also Mike.  He really has been my solid rock through all of this and he needed as much prayer as I did to get through this with me.

Step 2: I’m getting a new set of crutches, actually they’re called forearm crutches.  And these should be a lot easier for me to use and get around.  They should be arriving this afternoon, so we shall see 😀

Step 3: I’m applying for a Disability Parking ticket thingy.  One of my big worries about going places, especially by myself, is that I won’t have a close parking spot.  It’s difficult to get around on crutches already, but then also having to park a long distance from the front door just adds to the stress.

So this is my new life.  I guess I’m officially a disabled citizen.  Interesting….I never saw it coming.  Never in a million years would I guess this to happen to me, especially at the age of 33.  But I’m learning that God is in control.  And I’m just taking it one day at a time.

My blessings from this week:

-Mike is getting some time away to “recharge”.  All of this has been really taxing on him, on our whole family.  I’m really glad he’s getting this time with his buddies.

-I’ve got an awesome church family.  I’ve had three friends bring over meals while Mike’s been away.  The elders prayed for me and Mike.  I got some amazing gifts from different CCC sisters that lifted my spirits and are still bringing me great comfort.

-Cade and Reagan got to go to the fair with Mike last Thursday and had a BLAST riding tons of rides.  Their faces were priceless when they came home, talking over the top of each other, trying to tell me all about their awesome time.

-Season 6 of Grey’s Anatomy finally came out on Netflix, and I’ve been catching up 😀

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